There were a lot of trust issues between me and my ex-husband. I learned early on in our relationship that he did not have the same respect for monogamy that I did…..and he didn’t hesitate to remind me daily that he liked his women with small breasts and less than 120 pounds – which I wasn’t.
This all led to the inevitable – I cheated on him to make myself feel better and we eventually got divorced….but the remnants of distrust for all men world wide lingered, yet I got married to my second husband anyway.
I put him through the ringer. I did not trust anything. I didn’t trust his breathing. If he breathed a little too loudly during a movie scene, I would think that he is fantasizing about the girl in the scene.
Nowadays, I completely trust him. He has earned it.
But….what about those guys that have not necessarily earned trust – but need to be trusted for the sake of the relationship. Those guys that don’t cheat or even want to cheat, but they act like guys so it is hard to tell.
I am going to be honest here and say that despite the fact that I have absolutely no reason at all to suspect my husband of any funny business, due to my deep rooted insecurities, I occasionally can’t help the thought that creeps through every once in a while whispering in my ear that I better be smarter and watch my back.
Not only do I have this thought completely on my own….it doesn’t help that I have had friends in the past suggest the same thing.
Even some of you who are reading this are probably thinking that I shouldn’t be so naive and make sure to take heed of the “signs” mentioned above.
You see how far my paranoia can go?